Booze and the banality of life

This week has been the first week in a long time that i haven't had any booze. I'm doing it partly to lose weight and partly to prove to myself I'm not an alcoholic. I'm hoping to make it to February.

Its sparked some interesting conversations. Lou can have a glass of wine with her dinner for the taste alone. Not me. I want to get pissed. Not bladdered, just blur the edges of the day. Why? To postpone the banality of life for another day.

Unfortunately, booze does a very good job. Days become weeks become years, and the longer I postpone it, the less chance I have of actually doing anything about it.